its_just_GODs_radical_creation

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    • Name: Dorothy
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    • Member Since: 1/17/2008

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Tuesday, 24 February 2009

Sunday, 08 February 2009

  • filling the void

    AUUUGH i really just can't wait for retreat
    i haven't been going to church much anymore
    and if i do, it's not like i'm really there
    sure i talk to people, but i don't really feel like it's for God anymore
    like, i never do my sunday school hw anymore
    and my teacher was like... threatening me or something
    and i really am just getting lazy
    i don't do anything at all! and because i'm not doing anything half the time
    i can only think of HIM
    and i feel like my way of getting over him is by flirting
    and when people just get too attached, it bothers me now
    i can't exactly open up cause
    i have no one to open up to
    as some of you know, i've never been the type to...
    express my feelings in words. more of actions really
    and everything's really just bottled up inside
    every once in a while, it'll just EXPLODE
    and then yeah. kapploey
    ah well.
    so i gots a major haircut
    and i look really weird
    almost like a walking mushroom...
    hmmm. ah well.
    i've really been just faking my life
    again. i used to be so happy
    like. REALLY happy
    i guess i should start doing my sunday school hw
    or else my teacher'll start threatening me more
    and none of the guys do they're hw
    but he blames it all on me -______-
    and he can't even say blah blah blah right!
    instead it comes out as BRA BRA BRA???

Monday, 02 February 2009

  • haven't been up in a while
    but oh well.
    so i haven't been able to stop thinking about college lately
    porque? i don't know
    but the two at the top at this moment are UCLA and Georgia Tech
    of course, i need to work my butt off, but i haven't been doing so well this year
    i really just wanna screw over freshman year,
    but everyone's like
    you work hard in high school
    and get to relax just a little in college
    so i'm looking forward to that
    but right now, i can't wait for summer
    i really need a LONG break, but i'll be spending my summer in California
    sure, i'm looking forward to it, but summer school?
    meh. maybe
    i just wanna go to the beach like
    everyday with some friends
    if only someone had a beach house

    ahh well. i dunno

Thursday, 22 January 2009

Sunday, 18 January 2009

  • sick and flashcards giving advice?

    i'm sick. physically,emotionally and however i can possibly be
    everyone else is too (but only physically)
    my mother's sick and so is my brother

    i'm just sick of myself falling head-over-heels
    after these guys. it's final
    i'm not going to stop liking anyone,
    but i'm just going to take my time :]
    so proud of myself for this

    so anywaaays.
    me and diana hung out today
    it was really nice cause we haven't really had much time to talk lately
    and everything just yeah...
    so me and joanne kinda had this little photo-shoot
    and it was over all a pretty nice day
    i was gonna go to the mall with justin
    and i was kinda disappointed when i found out he wasn't going,
    but he lives in EB hehe

    i must be gaining weight
    all i eat are brownies and cheetos now
    ironic how my spanish flashcards dropped while i waseating a brownie
    and i look down and the card says
    "Getting into shape"
    it must be a sign or something